A year ago right now I was pacing the halls and walking the stairs of our little house on Brooksdale. Trav was getting some sleep and I was about to wake him as the contractions were getting stronger and I knew we'd need to go to the hospital soon.
My due date was the next day...and she would come right on time.
Born at 8:53am
January 4th.
(Not to recount the whole story here...but I got an epidural which didn't take at 8:15,
was at a 7 at 8:30, and with the help of too much pitocin delivered at 8:53...on the second push. Yikes.)
It's so hard for me to believe that a year has passed. I don't know that I can even comprehend much less recount all that has happened in the life of our little family since January 4th of last year.
For me, her birth marked the beginning of a crazy year. Since just 5 weeks later we would pack up and move our lives to Tempe. Via Texas and a 6 week fundraising trip.
I have felt like with each of our kids the Lord has given me a word describing what they would usher into my life personally as I loved, cared for, nurtured them. For her, the word was strength.
As I look back over this year, it is with tears that I can say that yes, she has ushered in strength.
She made a way for God to pour strength into my life like I've never experienced before.
I would not have made it through this last year without it.
He has been my rock.
He has been my strong foundation.
He has been my strength.
Everything around us started to change just after she was born.
I remember sitting on my couch nursing her and looking around my house and thinking, I don't know if I can do this. Leave everything. Go somewhere where I don't know anyone. Start completely over. Build a church.
I called a friend and shared my thoughts.
And what she said has been written on my heart ever since...
"Yes you can. Because you're about to walk into your destiny
and you don't want to miss it."
From then on, there was a conviction and resolve in my spirit that no matter how hard it got in the weeks or months to come...I was all in.
I knew my destiny in God was worth giving up everything for.
So little Emily will never know the crazy year that was her first.
But we will tell her stories of how the Lord used her to bring strength to her Momma, joy to her sisters, and even more love to her daddy.
Our lives have been turned upside down this year and she has hung on all the way through it.
She is a joy and a delight.
She is our little "rivaler" and our gift from God.
We love you, sweet Emmy.
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